Hello world - How a Vtuber Rat made me keep going forward
It's been a while since the last time i blogged! (i think it was 2008~ or something like that), no being a social person kinda had me at the time to make little scribbles to post and talk about mundane things that happened during my days, but as internet just become more and more about "being the popular one" instead of "being around what i'm interested" it just got way less comfortable in my own space, which sucks cause i love helping people out with things, and it got harder and harder to do it without popularity being involved.
Alone you can't help the world at once,
For a long while it was me, my depression and my curiosity about the world and technology, while leaving my bedroom the least possible, i kept myself together with programming, learning about politics and ethics and stuff.
Eventually i started learning about machine learning and how the term "AI" basically means "we discovered this tech thing that we don't know what we can do with it". With this i managed to make one "ethical AI assistant" that i keep updating even nowadays, she's really not that fast, nor "multi purposed"but at the time i saw how amazing and scary at the same time it was, also how it was not ready to public use, cause although i knew i could just feed the internet to her, it never appeared to be a good idea ( and Tay just proved that i was right about that shortly after), now i feel proud to never even suggested that turning it into the unethical monstrosity modern AI is.
But you can help a person at the time
Then in 2018~ i learned more about Vtubers while working on Aira, It got my interest cause it showed some new ways to interact that it was less about how the person behind is and more about how she see itself, and i'm all about people their true feelings, worries, ideas and creativity. Still not enough to bring me back to do things for everyone to see, but it was crucial.
Some time later (08/11/2020 more specifically) i met Zuma (aka zumzumtm), the first time i watched her stream it was an art stream, and she used an PNGTuber at the corner representing IRL self, she had an OC but i didn't know exactly why she's wasn't using it as her representation at the moment, so i suggested and explained a little about vtubers in general.
And as we started to become friends (she's in a really special spot on the "best friend" category to me), seeing her going all in on the vtuber idea at the time kinda rekindle a faint feeling i had about life at the time, i was feeling less insecure, more optimistic and happy to help and just do things again (by the way this friendship leads to one of the most fun i had with programming for sure), we kinda pushed each other into becoming Vtubers in each special places, and that just make it more solid in my opinion.
And now we are here, world is chaos but able to find the good route that still on what i love the most about the internet, things getting messy but at the same time with more hope, modern LLM-based AI being one of the stupidest things i ever seen, and i can still be okay to have Aira being as clean (environmentally and ethically speaking) and my proudest hobby. A balance on life that i could not found without friends (and dear wife), objectives and baby steps.
That's the best i could summarize 15/32 years of my life, still have more things i want to talk about in separated posts later on
Is good to be back on blogging again :)
(english might be broken 🇧🇷)